December 3, 2011

  • Missing home. Starting to feel the emptiness of this year, memories of decisions made, feelings spent. Settling for the safe. Craving the drugs. Restless and sober. Extremely restless. 

    Working as a Starbucks barrista again. Its fun, the people who work at the store I've been refreshing my training with are awesome. They are sarcastic and silly and helped me make it through crappy days.

     

    I miss my father.. I can't believe its been 3 years, 5 years since I lost my grandparents. A year since I chose a different path for my life; I feel like a ghost in my own skin.

     

    How to Destroy Angels, "A Drowning".

    I don't know how much longer I can act the part. 

    More than 2 weeks away. This is for the better, arguably so, but I am aware.

    Happy to be finished with this semester minus a few last details. I graduate in May with honors.

    No idea what to do with my degree... don't really know where I want to go from here, but I want out of here as soon as possible. I have felt this kind of restless before. Nothing really solves it except for leaving.

    I'm really sorry.