September 3, 2015

  • Comes and Goes (in Waves)

    Ryan came back into my life. At the beginning of this year I was convinced I was falling in love with him but I chose heroin over him. After he had some pins removed from his leg in New Mexico he apologized to me for what had happened between us. He was stuck in Denver and finally made the effort to come see me tonight. We had sex yeah but he held me, he kissed me in such a comforting, familiar way.

    coldplay, "fix you" is what was playing in my head as he held me. We both don't want a relationship but we want to have sex, cuddle, go out, and have space. I think this is just what we both need. I know that I spent all day evaluating what to do next and I have my answer.