September 5, 2015

  • Take me to church

    Sara came and saw me tonight.

    Her and my mother agreed I should be honest with him. So I was. And instead of it being a bad thing, it was perfect and there was good communication.

    and after an hour long, clarifying phone call we were friends again on Facebook and I said:

    me: you're too cute. and gorgeous. and intelligent. and I am a sucker for how you sound at the end of phone calls. or when you're sleepy. and I sorta just really want to lightly trace my fingers on your neck and kiss you in a totally not make you feel awkward way.
    fuckk Ryan. fuck.
    this is why you've been stuck in my head like a song you don't want to like but can't stop listening to since I met you.
    Ryan:
    9/4, 10:49pm
    Haha I'll admit, it sounds awesome and you're a good chick. You are. Don't forget that
    10:54pm
    Me:
    there we go, now I can reply. Thank you. I remember that one night you ran by work with me in the car, and maybe this is why I associate the singer Hozier with you in particular, when I looked at you through the glass talking to security because you had to like put in your shift bid, and that song, "take me to church" came on and it was like fuckk... that's just perfect. "My church offers no absolutes
    She tells me, "Worship in the bedroom."
    The only heaven I'll be sent to
    Is when I'm alone with you" .... my final thought is its not lusty, its not necessarily lovey, its just there is something about you that is better to me than Ive experienced, and I've had a fair amount of lovers over the years, just simple little touches you made feel electric and you for damn sure still have it. I couldn't say no to you if I tried. So with that, he might be an indie like singer but one of these days when you get a moment (like when youre doing laundry) listen to either like "work song" or "to be alone with you" on youtube for me. just cause. And if this part of the message in any way turns out making you feel like I came on too strong I will officially blame the hormones.
    10:56pm
    me:
    cause I'm probably gonna get some ice cream and lay in my bed and listen to that pandora station and think about you and try to unwind before bed.

    His reply:
    Ryan:
    Haha you should write more. thank you, sincerely. That's incredibly nice to say. I just have one question

    11:05pm
    me:
    Yes?
    Ryan:
    9/4, 11:05pm
    What kind of ice cream?

    fuck me I'm gonna wind up falling in love with him before the first snow.