July 5, 2015

  • so I was able to finally end my relationship with Heroin. And now I am at the end of completely weening off methadone.

    my boyfriend Matt saved my life-- him and Stephanie.

    I really want to marry Matt. I said if the first time he slept over, I knew it, I know it. He is what I have been searching for my entire life. Now I have to be patient and wait but we are getting there. he put me on his car insurance and the first weekend of having his new car he let me borrow it all weekend. He makes sure I am never hungry he is there for me. He bought me a Chromebook and then brought home made fudge when I had my period. He has helped me move a couple of times. I think he is moving in with me in November. I have never felt this way about anyone, not since my first love ever. I know he isn't going anywhere but I do wish I had a way to lock it down. like the way you rent your apartment, I wish there were secondary alternatives. I am gong to work on getting a car.

    I feel free. I am remembering feelings. I am not being forced into this, I am finally moving on because I want to and I am choosing to.

    I think that is why it isn't as hard to go through.