My mom got me a laptop for school and it has afforded me freedom. I love watching Donnie Darko (Which I already did tonight) and Love, Marylin.... not really in a suicidal way, I find her to be an inspiration even with her sad paperwork they found and narrate for the movie. Having Will gone has been such a relief. I feel like I was getting sicker because of the stress he was causing me. I finally feel like writing some poetry.
5 to 6 am I like to smoke a cigarette
I talk to them sometimes, tell them what a soldier they have been
life becomes something you make for yourself
letting others get in the way puts up bars
making your own cell when you already have bars around your thoughts
makes the stars, the paint, the idea of love just ideas
carbon paper or painting who you are
writing down a recipe in the back of a sketch book
creating the taste of your mother's home
when peace finally draws in she makes it on her own
I used to hate not talking to one ex
but ex is an ex for a reason
and he is married, something I find myself jealous of
half the time I want that commitment
half of the time I wish I had a baby to nurture
until I realized I had to nurture myself first
understanding where life can take you never works
surprising interstates at night
calling out liars but myself
loving cities and places I can't bring myself home to
but I can love myself and where I am going
and even with my baggage I can start fresh again
each day is a new day to start over
I love you, Marylin; though you were a mystery
but you remind me that tomorrow can be a new day
if I work hard enough one day opportunity will knock
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