September 15, 2015
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Stay High/// ..... no.... I wanna get better
I found that I am most efficient when I smoke Heroin. Not shoot it, just smoke a little. It eases all the physical pain and puts me in a better mental space... but do I want this to be how I manage my shit? No.
Every time I used to smoke I listened to To Love's "Stay high"... now I just want to push repeat on the song by the Bleachers, I wanna get better.
I called Aspen Pointe and made sure I have transportation to get to the appointment tomorrow.
I worked it out with Planned Parenthood.
Unfortunately I worked a couple dates from backpage so I could get ahead.
Honestly, that sort of thing I just mentally block out now. I don't see faces or even am bothered by the moment. I'm a zombie and it works.I really need to make more cash though, I need money for laundry and food and all that fun stuff.
sigh.
at least I am accomplishing things today.
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